I was going through my stats on this blog for the past few months, and found it very interesting that the post with the most views is “I’m a recovering addict…” !!! I’m not sure – are that many people out there searching by “addict” tags and happen upon my site, or is it the “recovering” tag that gets their attention? Either way – thank you for visiting my site! And here’s another “addiction” story for you!
Yes, I am still addicted – rather, I am still in need of steroids. I certainly needed them to maintain my strength during my recent wound-vac episode following the seroma surgery, which was due to an infection from my hysterectomy surgery. (Bad luck, or bad/unclean practices by the OBGYN surgeon? You decide – I know I have.)
Anyway, I had the wound-vac removed on September 14th – what is left of the incision is healing nicely, with the help of a dressing called ‘adaptic.’ That same day, I developed a nasty upper respiratory infection (that is still hanging on, by the way). Then, of course, my family had to endure the funeral of my uncle last week…also quite stressful. So the past few weeks have definitely not been the right time to try and wean off my meds.
With things winding down over the weekend, I decided to withhold the steroids… mostly because the winding down part caused me to forget to take my regular dose of 10mg a.m. on Saturday! By the time I remembered, it was late in the afternoon. In fact, my husband and my kids and I had just returned from a 2mile walk in the woods (which I accomplished with no problems!!), and I knew if I took my meds then, I wouldn’t be able to sleep that night. Since the labs aren’t open on Sundays, I withheld that day as well and drove my sleepy butt to the lab by 8a.m. yesterday morning for bloodwork. I should have ACTH and cortisol level results hopefully by the end of the week.
Truth be told, I harbor a little fear that my body is still not ready to cease meds. I have been so wiped out over the past few days. In fact, yesterday afternoon I took a nap and slept so hard that when I was awakened by the phone ringing, I was completely disoriented and weak enough that I couldn’t pick up the phone in time. Then I was crabby because I had been woken up, and it just wasn’t pretty.
My point is, if my body were able to make enough cortisol on its own, I don’t think I would feel so “blech.” Or, on the other hand…..are these just withdrawal symptoms that are less harsh than before because I’m on such a low dose of steroids? If this is withdrawal (and I know it only takes 3-4 days to get over it), then why would I want to go back to taking the full 10mg everyday until I hear the results of my bloodwork? Because if the results are good and I get word that I can discontinue steroids, I would have to go through withdrawal all over again!
I go back to work this coming Monday. At best, I have the weekend to recover from withdrawal if I can discontinue my meds. So I have made an “executive decision” to cut my regular dose in half. Here’s hoping 5mg will sustain me!